End of yet another YEAR

Move over 25, 26 is being ushered in.
There is somthing new i realised, which happens at the end of the year- Ur Bank Accounts. Well, all those claims you are entitled for, gets converted into hard cash, and is deposited in your account. Now isnt it wonderful. Its the same thing which happened yesterday. My bank account got inflated. Besides i got my confirmation letter from the organisation i am working for :-). Now i am full time employee (i am coming back ......architecture) Hate to be stereotyped. Then i got a lucrative offer from another competitor organisation, and obviously denied the same.

2005 was an amazing year because......

1) i fulfilled my dream of earning a Master's Degree by 2005, something what i had swore in 2000
2) fulfilled yet another dream of leading gadget-savvy life. I bought the following things for myself- Laptop, Digital Camera, MP3 Player, and lots more.
3) started to live on my own money, finally weaned off good old daddy
4) Promised to never use a credit card (Though i own a brand new Standard Chartered)
5) managed to save 44% of my earnings
6) toured for 58 days in this year- Nainital, Gujarat (Bhuj, Ahmedabad, Nagpur, Shirdi...........)
7) Managed to find a couple of new friends
8) Staying alone and financially being accountable to +/- Rs 250 every month
9) My relationship is no more LONG distance
10) My family is financially and gadget-wise healthy.
11) Managed to FLY my parents for their annivasary
12) Got employed in the Best Industry for the highest pay in my field
13) Sailed through perhaps my worst period in my life (SPA life)
14) My career and spouse have both settled. (Spouse,,,well 3 years before what i had anticipated
15) Realised yet another dream of making it to the Magazines (Design nominated for Best Unbuilt Structure- Architecture + Design, August 2005)
16) FELT I AM REALLY LIVING MY DREAM and Felt LIKE AN ACHIEVER

3 CHEERS.......2005

Two days to 2006

Yes, u guessed it right. Its yet another day in office. I am pretty happy cos after two months, working on Evaluation softwares, i managed to find cracks for the two most significant exclusive softwares. So, it has got big smile on my face. New year festivities has really affected the office strength. We are working at 30%.
It was pretty weird, yesterday, when i called up my buddy to offer condolences, to his departed dad. It was first time i was doing this. I was kind of speechless and whatever i spoke, thought was stupid. Basically, it was the most difficult conversation i have had with my friend. Really thought should have been there for him.
My ARCHITECTURE is finally 'Coming back to Life' from 1st January 2006. I guess six months is quite a time i had given to myself to 'settle down'. There are two projects with me. Both residences- Project Alpha is new one while Project Beta is a renovation cum addition. Pretty challenging since both have them have pretty small footprint. ITS THE RISE OF PASSION yet again,, long nights, tea at 3 am, concepts....., sketches...., program abuse......, so little site..but so much to they ask......well man,,,i am coming back to them

Life sucks when,,,,,
9) You get your own 'Forward' mail back
10) U realise that u still need to earn more to enjoy the hip 'New Year Bashes' around the city
11) U realise that the Foreign Movie u are watching, doesnt have English Sub-titles
12) U are bombarded by phone calls, when ur getting ready to office, after waking up late
13) Milkman rings the bell daily at 5 in the morning to INFORM his prompt service
14) Milk is available in Half litre packs, and nothing less than that
15) Its been six months away from family folks and still u dont miss them from yet

Life sucks

Life sucks.................
1) When u land up a new city for an occasion, and return back without attending it
2) When u get u know that a very close friend of urs just lost his dad
3) When u try to cook a cup of corn, without a pressure cooker, and FAIL after spending 45 mins at the stove
4) When u realise that parents feel insecure, when you react with their offspring
5) When u cant enjoy the full comfort of the travel, after paying extra, since your co passenger feels INVADED
6) When u are woken up by a call, informing that the cab service to office is unavailable for the day
7) When u realise u are away from loved ones, and u try to search for 'Balancing' factors, to believe it is all worth it
8) When ur laptop is the only companion for 14 hrs in a day, to communicate with

Yet another day 2

Its a perfect 'yet another day' at office. Today morning, our cab driver didnt turn up neither did my cab partner, since coincidently, someone close departed in each of their houses. So had to make it to office by local bus. No issues though. Am feeling a bit nostalgic though. While i was travelling in the bus, sandwiched between two ppl, on the last seat; thoughts like 'what the heck', what the fuck am i doing', 'where am i', 'is this all necessary', were raking up my gray area. And the same hangover is going on, now too. This is the biggest disadvantage of the philosophy- lets take it as it comes. But the time you are anchored on to something, you would have flown away pretty far, far away from where you wanted to reach. Right now, i am this dichotomy. I really dont know what to do, and where to head

Few things to ponder

> Never tell your problems to anyone...20% don't care and the other 80% are glad you have them. -Lou Holtz
> Never explain yourself. Your friends dont need it and your enemies wont believe it. -Belgicia Howell
> You must experience and accept the extremes. Because if the contrast is lost, you lose appreciation; and when you lose appreciation, you lose the value of everything. -Philippos
> The true measure of a man is how he treats someone who can do him absolutely no good. -Ann Landers
> Being sad with the right people is better than being happy with the wrong ones. -Philippos
> Throughout life people will make you mad, disrespect you and treat you bad. Let God deal with the things they do, cause hate in your heart will consume you too. -Will Smith
> If your problem has a solution then...why worry about it? If your problem doesnt have solution then...why worry about it? -Chinese Proverb
> Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change. Kiss slowly, play hard, forgive quickly, take chances, give everything and have no regrets. Life's too short to be anything but happy
> The ultimate measure of man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy. -Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.
> Pain never really goes away; you just elevate and get used to it by growing stronger. -Philippos
> You have to take the good with the bad, smile with the sad, love what you've got, remember what you had, learn from your mistakes, but never regret, people change, things go wrong, but remember life goes on!
> Always put yourself in the other's shoes. If you feel that it hurts you, it probably hurts the person too.
> Sometimes the people who hurt us the most are people who were hurt more than us. –Philippos
> Our tears are what happens when it rains deep inside our hearts and we cannot hold the rain any longer. -Philippos
> I like to pretend that everything's alright. Because when everybody else thinks you're fine, sometimes you forget for a while that you're not.
> "Reputation is what men and women think of us; character is what God and angels know of us." -Thomas Paine
> The things that made me stronger are the ones that didn't let me sleep at first. -Anonymous

Feelings

Well, there are quite a few things on my mind, which is evoking mixed emotions in me. First, feeling lonely, i really cant figure out the reason. May be cos my roomate left in the morning, without even wishing me. Come on, we have been together for 8 months and you just cant walk off, like a stranger. Anyways fuck it, big deal (Ah, now feeling better) Secondly, i walked up to the person whom i admire, and who had given me a lucrative job offer. he had given me 3 months to think about it and the deadline was on Dec 31. I just told him that i had different career plans, and the job profile didnt match my career profile. I dont know how much he was convinced, but i am dead sure that he would seriously appreciated the straight forwardness. So, its a feel of relief, cos facing him sometimes is quite an ordeal. Its actually a big decision. Had i taken the offer, i would have had a different direction in life but then, Chalo theek hai. I have to quite to prove in my current job. Then today i officially handed over the documents to the client for one package. 1 out of 28. Guess, have to start off some time, and today was the day. So feeling good .

End of yet another day 1

do u know whats the most irritating thing in the world, when u r all packed up to sign off and there lands a guy with 'this has to be done now only' look. This is eggjactly what happened to me now. But then when Satan is on your side, y worry. Being on the other side of the table helps, and its was not easy for me to find out some mistakes in the document what the guy carried. Cooly, i asked him to resubmit the same tomorrow. Phew, as easy as stealing a candy from a child. :-)

With that time saved, i am penning my signing off notes. Tomorrow is big day,with the client arriving on site. So tomorrow, will surely wont be an 'yet another day' it will sure throw up some new things.

Right now living the moment, and enjoying life.
I just got the brief about my next project. And yes, its my personal architectural work, and not to do anything with my professional job. I need to renovate a residence and design an architectural statement . thats what my client wants. I received the filled up exhaustive questionnaire, which i had prepared when i started freelancing architecture. Enough to screw my brain for the next one month. I have named the project as 'Project Beta' for some weird reason. And S, there is 'Project Alpha' too. My first project, which is still on drawing board. As an efficient planner (which i sometimes doubt), i plan to finish the designing of Alpha before the year end and start off afresh on Beta, from Jan. Anyways the photos of Beta, is still due from the client, so it consciously gives me some breathing space.

Well, there was supposed to be farewell party for my roommate. But he cared two hoots to it, which pissed of my collegues and hence the same stands cancelled.

I just wanna get back home and get cosy, cos it very very very cold. May be watch a movie or two, on my lappy (its been loaded with 20 movies right now)

My roomate has his train at morning 2. Having known him, I think he would have already vacated the flat by now. Anyway, doesnt bother me much.

Catch u tomm, then

Yet another day 1

well some kind of gratification over here. Dispersed drawings for statutory clearances, (Polly- nirvana on my Lappy), handed over few forms over to the client. My conscious is somewhat happy that some work is being done.
Just back from Lunch, a 6 km drive from my office place- obscurity secured !!!
Anyways, after a lot of economic preachings from my collegues, yesterday on the way back home, i finally booked the VOLVO to Nagpur- the city of Oranges (no pun intended), will surely brief about the oranges, when i come back.
Man, i am feeling really sleepy really sleepy, wish i would have had nice nap at this moment of time. I wouldnt have asked for anything.

Office boredom

Another of my Office Boredom Babies....Enjoy

Still bored

i broke my specs, eggjacktly (SN style) after a year. I had kept on my bed in the night and at the morning, simply rolled over it , to find in two pieces when i woke up. Another 1000 bucks ka chuna lag gaya. And it has certainly not help my purse in any way. Already, i have this nagpur trip coming up over the weekend, where again i will be burning a hole in the pocket. Guess need to cut down the outflow in the 'communications' sector to make it up. Lets see.
Another 15 mins to sign off, and see i am all up in my best spirits. Need to go withdraw money, book my tickets for Nagpur. After my spectacle debacle- VOLVO is certainly out of question, need to manage with a sleeper class or ordinary luxury bus (good oxymoron). Then hunt for a spec store and set right my specs. Fuck man, unnecessary expenditure. (Remember what parents say, it hurts when u spend UR money,,,,,,,.....slowly but surely realising it)
My roomate is leaving for Delhi, tomm night. Will miss him. I will have the flat for myself. But then will sure feel lonely out here. So life's again gonna change in the next few days. Lets see.

india rocks

was following the test match- ball by ball,,and yes on the net. we have really screwed Lankans. and the man of the match should go to the GREAT INDIAN TAIL, which finally has started to wag. anyways, the match has really lifted my spirits
Talking of spirits, there has been an interesting observation, from my collegues, which i endorse to quite an extent,----that i wake up at 6pm, like everyday, i am full of josh by the time we are signing off from the office. The same is really down when coming to office in the morning. Anyways, doesnot make a difference to me. I am enjoying myself offlate
and S, have to tell this, yesterday watched the 19th movie of the year,,,NEAL AND NIKKI,,man it was so horrible,,,,not IT rather HER. Tanisha, had a full hooker type appearance. and her face,,,,gosh,,am really not finding words to express my pukishness. i actually quit the hall post interval. and spent the time at Crossword. the first thing i did after getting home, was to delete the Nand N mp3s from my Laptop. That was the extent to which i was screwed.

bored

now that my blog looks impressive, i wanna to put my photo on it. am still figuring it out, and sure will do it. India is really sliding down in the second innings. The mood just got drenched when i got to know that Sachin got out. i knew he wouldnt perform in the second innings of a match and that too when it was most needed, he failed predictably, but still do feel the pang when he is dismissed cheaply.

creation

hi,
this blog is a child of my boredom. and Yes, office boredom. there is no one at office, neither my boss Mr. Tapan Dash nor d'motivator' d gret (pronounced in Arnie terminator style) my client is in office. I am supposed to overlook and manage the closing out documentation for the project we are working. With 90% of the documentation done, i am really bored and desperately need a break. anyways this is my first post. so i wanna see the preview of my blog